Tuesday, January 21, 2014

The Kingdom of God

False grace is a slippery
                 slope of deception
Selling you the perception
                 that there are no consequences to your actions
Preaching that God's love for you
                 is not to be trusted
They say pride is the way, and they can't define justice
Leading sheep astray to a land with no compass
Far enough away to feel so much distance
All because of our own resistance
Left with your addictions
                 and my lack of conviction
Hiding my face in darkness
                 wondering if I'll ever see him again

And when I see him again,
                 is when I start dreaming again
I feel freedom again

If Jesus is peace and Jesus is freedom
Don't we need him to reign in order to recieve them?

When a King reigns, his people follow
Why is this so hard to swallow?
Maybe because we want to rule
               over our own choices
But in doing this,
               we become voiceless

Like Ariel who sold her voice
               on the hope of a dream
Do we realize the price we pay
              while saying he makes us clean?

Monday, April 2, 2012

Collaboration

I lay here at night staring up at the ceiling cause nights the only time where I can't run from what I'm feeling this thud thud pounding resounding in my chest I cling to the pulpit praying for eternal rest
Because restless I lay here weighed down by my baggage, looking to you to strip me of my damage. One look from you and I will be renewed.. One touch of your robe and these thoughts will come unglued from my mind, the pain inside will cease, as I sit at your feet.. As I look into your eyes, I'll find my peace. 

Written with Natalie Mejias

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Humbled

Who was I to tell you
what I would or would not do
Feeling as though I was at my end
without an ounce of strength left
You saw that I was struggling
and knew the mess I was in
You knew what the battle was
When all I saw was sin
I was crying out for help
with a desperate plea
Knowing I wasn’t living right
but not wanting to flee
Loving how it felt
to play with the lust
Tampering with destruction
and turning into dust
He tempted me with false love
This angel of light
Over and over again I fell
and over and over I had to fight
He creeps in corridors
and hides in small places
Hoping we won’t see him
and waiting for us to embrace it
Scales falling from my eyes
and now it’s all so clear
I was a captive soldier on the field
But because I’ll fight, Victory is here

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

By Myself

Why do I hand my trust
Over to the lust of protection
Needing hands to cover me
Holding me together
Piece by piece
until I see that you don’t
Have what I need
But you are the opposite
Struggling to find
something to pass the time
thinking you’re a safe place
only leaves me in danger
Only one can be the glue
to piece me back
If I allow this to happen
I will be made whole
No longer needing you
or anyone else
Whole together by myself
Holding it together
By myself is all I need
By myself will set me free
By myself is healing

Distraction

Green pastures peacefully
aligning to the nature of
futures aligned and designed
to stay together or split apart
I know that One is never far
no matter what we are
Even if I don’t know truth
when it comes to you
Even if I don’t know intentions
motives or decisions of my future
Blindly believing you plainly
is ignorance in bliss
A cycle of misplaced trust
Love being something that
is only genuine when unselfish
means that you can only Love yourself
Chemistry becoming  infatuation
seeming like something to be
worthwhile, creating  Smiles
while only distracting and destroying
 Qualities of familiar behavior
Kindly leading me to believe
that you care while only
goading me along with your stare
Stirring me with your smile
keeping me here awhile
while I know that there is
somewhere else
I need to be

Sunday, February 19, 2012

A Letter To My Past

A letter to my past
Needs to be written
From start to finish
The ink cannot linger
On the page
This letter needs to
Say goodbye
One final time
To life I knew
The life you stole
From inside me
The magic you polluted
With your unjust sins
Will be purified once again
Once this letter is written
Saying goodbye to all the times
You opened my eyes
Then made me cry
To all the times
You sold me your dream
I was an actor in your story
Where you get all the glory
I was a tool for you to use
Submitted to your abuse
While playing my part

This place has always been
Magic to me
A place to come alive
With creativity
A place I could dwell
And feel at peace
And then you came
And brought your disease

I refuse to allow that
Any longer
As I reclaim my life
And reclaim my honor
You can not steal
This place from me
This place that holds
So many dreams
So many memories
So many tears

I will reclaim my life
And everything
I am entitled to
You called this city your own
But I am taking it back

No Apologies

If you think I’ve changed
This is actually me
Staying the same
And winning the game
Never again will I mold myself
Into something I feel is necessary
To keep someone’s love
Striving for false perfection
Everything I now am is
Everything I’ve been
So while you were lost
It was a win
My past is a part of me and
Made me who I am
I have no shame in my memories
Fragile they are not
Success and Mistakes
Are one in the same
Whether they bring happiness or pain
Bitterness loyalty or shame
My history is my strength
The evidence of my weakness
Memories of victimizing myself
Are a reminder of my worth