The Kingdom of God

False grace is a slippery
                 slope of deception
Selling you the perception
                 that there are no consequences to your actions
Preaching that God's love for you
                 is not to be trusted
They say pride is the way, and they can't define justice
Leading sheep astray to a land with no compass
Far enough away to feel so much distance
All because of our own resistance
Left with your addictions
                 and my lack of conviction
Hiding my face in darkness
                 wondering if I'll ever see him again

And when I see him again,
                 is when I start dreaming again
I feel freedom again

If Jesus is peace and Jesus is freedom
Don't we need him to reign in order to recieve them?

When a King reigns, his people follow
Why is this so hard to swallow?
Maybe because we want to rule
               over our own choices
But in doing this,
               we become voiceless

Like Ariel who sold her voice
               on the hope of a dream
Do we realize the price we pay
              while saying he makes us clean?

Bonding

Sorry for the wait
I wasted good thoughts,
pillaged deep needs and
struck out before I got to run

Run from this tragedy
That has become my world
broken and breaking
while fitting the mold

She counts the cost in green bills
I count in pennies, we fought with
fists, they fought with riddles

Racing wreck less and free
hiding from me
while swerving and ducking
her battles

Ramblings

Can I take responsibility for you
Or your choices
How much weight do mine play
Because if I listen to the voices
Telling me I'm ruining you
wrecking you for life
Responsibility is Mine
But for now all I want
is to continue to make
memories that will haunt

Playing every day
In the playground of my heart
Your love is a swingset
& I was High from the start

The place that I am in
Leaves me battling my dreams
Because lately it seems
Like I am not worthy

Can I open my mouth
and speak Truth
while the life I live
is of a rebellious youth

Can I reach those
who are calling out
Or will I watch them Cry
Will I watch them Die
As I Walk By
Living My life
Taking care of me
Feeling so free
But holding the key
That others need
Isn't really free.. at all

Who am I bonded to
If its not Him
It's Me
And I can't do it alone
He's Everything
The words that I speak
The message that I teach
The love that I feel
That allows you to heal
Is carried by me
Only if I allow it.
Like a doctor on hiatus
Who knows the cure
But is taking time
Before being pure
Is grace really all
That I need
In order to be able to speak
Or are there sacrifices that need
to be made
When will I make them
Don't want it to be too late
While I sit and wait
to be ready

The alarm is sounding
upon deaf ears
Those who heard it
for so many years
Are Weary
The alarm is sounding
and we are numb
After drowning in Hope
and finding a different outcome
Then the one we expected
The one we devoted ourselves to.
The soldiers are weary
The alarm is sounding
and we're beaten by the battle
Death Creeping In
and Lying in our Shadows

Who comes to the aid
of the lost ones
Who holds the map
To help us find our way home
Or do we need to look
Inside ourselves
To find which way to go
Answers can only be given
After questions are asked
So if no one is searching
How long will we last
Laying on the battlefield
After years of crying
Years of hoping
Years of waiting
There is only One
who sustains
One who remains
One who stays
One who prays
Holding us while we
reject Him
Holding us while we
neglect Him
Holding us and whispering
Just
Come
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